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the brain, the amygdala is the “house of fear”, almond-shaped,
container of crude flashes. It codes violent memory intosmall film-still
doses, activated by random triggers, like freeze frames, poorly
seen, but powerful in effect. Post-traumatic stress afflicts those
who witness terror and sustain abuse. Forget, just for a moment,
by a willing suspension of disbelief, that there is no place behind
the screen. Allow yourself the fantasy of atopic space….where
topologies, though drawn with the vectors of Cartesian geometries,are
at best provisional. Access is through an improvisation, or performance,
on the part of the traveller through a smashed space.
Naxsmash
is a cyborg’s utopia. She is everywhere and nowhere, she
is the stand in for the chora (the inbetween place between the
speech act and the space of power). The electronic landscape is
she who wants to speak, she cannot speak, her gestures resonate,
her skin is radiant, she disappears into transparent layerings.
I make naxsmash to recover speech, to make an aesthetic and ethical
action from inside a space of x, where I am nowhere, nobody, nascent,
smashed. In the world of naxsmash, I am no longer a woman, a human,
but rather a place, of x, a place without subject. I make naxsmash
as a way of communicating through artistic language when words
failed me, as I struggle with the aftereffects of personal trauma
involving sexual and emotional abuse. I do not speak of what had
happened, I could not breathe. By being nowhere, in utopia space,
I could make Naxsmash. Transistory and improvised, naxsmash, like
the net, is a playspace on the sensation of presence ‘behind’ the
screen. The name recalls birth (nascence)and destruction (smashing).
The Naxsmash project includes multimedia installation, video installation,
video, performance, net art, and writing. Installations are adapted
and modified by and for the space and use of each public site where
it is staged Live performance installations of naxsmash change
with each new venue, from video labs to festivals, nightclubs and
a repurposed streetcar station. Since 2001, I’ve created
versions of naxsmash at: Vancouver, BC, Canada (Moonbase Gallery
and "Digitalis: Concerning the Spiritual in Digital Art," 2001)
; Digital Studio/California Museum of Photography, 2002; Melbourne,
Australia (DIgital Arts and Culture Conference, Royal Melbourne
Institute of Technology, 2003) ; Weimar, Germany (Deutsches Nationaltheatre
/ Bauhaus University / with back-up festival of new media and film,
2003 http://naxsmash.net/nax/naxsmashloungelab.html SelectMedia
Festival, Chicago, 2003; San Francisco Performance Cinema Symposium,
2003. Architectural design students collaborated for “Naxsmash:
Global Poetry at the Powerhouse”, at California Polytechnic
State University Department of Architecture, 2001 and 2002 http://naxsmash.net/nax/naxsmashmedialab.html.
http://www.naxsmash.net
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